Sessilee vs. Chanel [part2]

Now i have video proof. TEEHEE



"Eniko, dont play!"

Thats all.

So today..

I was scouted by Moda Model Management.

At the moment, i'm sort of in my doubt phase. Maybe it was my knowledge of the industry that got them to scout me - to save face - because every informed individual should know modelling/acting courses are bullshit.

Admittedly, they are a legit agency. But im still a bit iffy on them. UGH.

SOMEONE give me some answers. PLEASE.

I hope i get a callback soon.

Jack

I haven't thought about it for a while..

but maybe it is time to slam down the breaks.

All the planning I've done in the past, maybe it was for a valid cause.
All these thoughts of the past have resurfaced.

The road ahead looks bleak.
Maybe it is time to stop the engine.

So...

people actually read my blog eh?

Well for those of you who like to do little bit of talking, i think you may be disappointed to find that i have cut out cigarettes from my life. Maybe not forever (who knows the future eh) but definitely for the time being.

On another note, IM PISSED OFF!! I accidentally double booked Wednesday. IM SORRY ROSA!! ..now i have to bug Kent to let me off early haha. UGH. Actually no, i'll have to work my ass off and get the shots quickly and hope that styling dosent fuss over me too much. LAME.

Jack

Back it comes

I'm testing once again. Not wise right before my exams i know, but seriously, they mean nothing to me. I still do want to do well, but really, they're not really helping me all that much.

I'm booking as much work as i can these holidays, plus sending in submissions to all the major players here in Sydney.

My next test is on wednesday. Why is there a lack of stylists here in Sydney? My wardrobe does not compensate for the amount of test shoots i have. I mean i have my own style of clothing and some pieces are versatile, but you can only play around with one look so many times. Speaking of which, i must get my formal shoes on Tuesday now, because i would probably need them for the shoot.

On wednesday, i shall morph myself into a hybrid of images from Blade and Matrix with gothic influences.

An image from the inspiration board.

It shall be interesting. I haven't shot in a studio in a while.

Jack

BAM!

It's suddenly hit me that i shall never see some of my beloved friends ever again. I shall not be in this preprepared environment, where everyone is put together.

It didn't hit me when i graduated, it didn't hit me on our last day at the picnic. So why now?

Well, Debbie deactivated her facebook account. Petty, it seems. However, it was in a way, symbolic, yet still very literal for me.
She shut the door of communication between us (and others of course, but im ranting on from my perspective). She was one of the very few people i truly appreciated, yet i would probably never see her again in the future , like many other people - I'm not being pessimistic, im being realistic.

I guess this is almost like an official goodbye from me, except no one is here to listen.

I really did enjoy my time at Girraween. It was one of the best experiences in my life.

<3
Jack Huang

Out with the new. In with the old.

I was supposed to stop smoking today.

I had two when i was out with a friend.

I hate myself.

Finished my pack - not buying a new one.

Gonna go swimming at least twice a week and run twice a week.

And do weights 4 times a week.


Come back to me, oh habits of the past.