Cole Mohr in a speedo?

NEVARR!!



nom nom ;)

Sweet Taste of Yesterday

It seems like both trivial and more significant things have become less enjoyable. I don't find as much satisfaction in what used to get me ecstatic.

I believe social dynamics play a large part in this.

Maybe it's because of myself and my environment. I have no where i truly belong to anymore, possibly because i am now a hybrid between femmeboy-fashionfreak and regular guy with straight tendencies.
Many are stuck in the past and don't see i am evolving away from my uberdubergayness. However that is not my main concern.
I'm stuck between two social archetypes and have no where to go. On a literal level, all the girls dont socialise with me anymore because they don't see me as one of them anymore, and i still find it difficult at times to completely immerse myself in ..'guy world'.
The fact that i'm naturally drifting away from everybody does not help either.

Maybe it's because i am brainwashing myself into thinking that everything is superficial and is not really worth it; I am over analyzing every single detail in my life.

Maybe it's a mix of both.

Maybe i'm just too sensetive.

I don't know. All i know is that life really sucks right now and i'm not sure i can rebuild anything remotely enjoyable that is based around social circles.

Jack

Vivienne Westwood

I have never taken her seriously.

After seeing this on the runway this week at the opening of London Fashion Week...



I threw up in my mouth a just little bit more than i usually do.

Jack

Yesterdays obsession.

Lyle Lodwick, i have a confession to make. Sorry babe, you're not 'it' anymore.

AJ Abualrub here i come!!

This boy is AMAZING. *sigh*

Being the amazing detective (stalker) i am, i got hold of a picture of his drivers license too.

It's such a cute photo!

PS: If he's listed as 6'2 by his agency and he's actually 6'3, and Matt Gordon is 6'3.. Does that mean Matt is actually 6'4? And if they're high in their 6's, does that make me 5'2? Bittersweet nothings. I HATE MY LIFE.

Oh Hai.

Guess who the new girl on the block this season is?



It's MARTIN COHN!!



I'm not even joking.

So.. Recently,

I've been wondering who actually booked the jobs i didn't.

There aren't many guys that usually are at the same castings i am, as in there aren't many male models around.

So if i didn't book a job, someone i know must have booked it.

So i wonder who booked the editorial and magazine covers, who booked that bloody look book shoot that was f*cking good pay (by good pay i mean work for 4 hours and make more than what a lot of people make for 2 weeks working full time) and who booked the ad campaign which would go up on billboards in Sydney.

I wanted a cover, billboards and money!!

Im hoping to see who gets those bookings. Because.... *stab stab* ;)

Jack

PS: Those photographers really can't spell.

PPS: That tub of strawberry shortcake icecream aint helping either.

What is this.

Did someone say lighter?

The trigger is pulled.
A rush of adrenaline pulses through my brain and rushes through to my arms.
They reach out to a crumpled box
Filled with individually wrapped flakes of delight.

Standing sleepily,
My hands grip around the bars incarcerating me in the room
Swirls of smoke creep out the window.

Such days of youth
Shall be of regret once shadows fall upon my face.
But i don't care.